Demam Rindu..

Hari Rabu lepas, i was on half day sbb nak pegi renew my visa. lepas dah ambik number suma tu, got sms from Z's phone.. bibik cakap temperature Z dah naik 37.5 degree.. tgk giliran mmg lambat lagi, so I went home to check on him.. mmg demam pun anak mama tu..

bibik cakap makan tak nak, tidur pun tak nak.. tapi when i was at home, ok jer dia makan n terus terlelap afterward.. but still terkejut2 n cranky laa.. around 4.30 camtu, i have to go back to the immigration office, and only come back at 8.30pm that night. his condition still not improving.. then malamnya he was sleeping on my chest the whole night.

yesterday, his condition show some improvement. still panas and cranky.. nak bawak pegi clinic pun, mcm takde la demam sgt.. tapi still risau la sbb tak baik2 kan..

tatau ler kenapa.. nak kata sbb tumbuh gigi, rasanya sama jer condition gum dia tu.. hairan jugak ler.. last time demam, i think because we bring him out during windy weather.. tapi this time, last keluar was on sunday. takkan rabu baru nak demam kot.. hubby asked to check cctv in case dia jatuh ke apa ker.. tak de jugak.. rang my mum, and she said probably because Z misses his mum kot...! mmg ler dia mcm biasa jer bila mama pegi keje, but of course he feel the different when i am not around kan.. and obviously baby cant tell yet how they felt!

awww.... thats so sweet honey.. tapi jangan ler demam2 yer sayanggg.. mama pun rindukan sayang.. but mcm selalu mama cakap, mama have to go to work.. mama will try to be at home as soon as possible.. kalau x der banyak keje, by 5.30 mama dah terpacul depan Z dah pun.. jgn ler sakit2 yer.. susah hati mama kat office nih..

anyway, alhamdulillah harini he is better. dah takde temperature dah.. but still not back to his own self laa.. cant wait to go home. friday slalunya around 4 mama dah cabut.. tunggu mama yer sayang... nanti kalau weather cantik, this weekend kite bole pegi park lagi yer..



happy baby at the park :)

p/s: mama dah start busy at work.. and i really dont like it especially when baby is unwell at home... :(

p/p/s: busy2 pun, still boleh update blog? actually everybody at work tgh tgk Royal Wedding live nih.. mama pun join skali ler.. :)

Not too bad..

Alhamdulillah.. Mama did survived the 1st 'week'. Nasib baik mgu ni mama cuma bekerja 2 hari shj.. Friday and this Monday adelah cuti for Easther. Namun begitu, 2 hari pun mama rasakan masa berlalu cukup lama..

Tapi, rasanya mama aje yg beria2 rindukan Z.. Mama tgk Z relax jer tiap pagi bila mama nak keluar tu.. Huhuhu.. Sampai hati Z x rindukan mama ek... Cuma bila mama balik keje jer la, Z baru mcm perasan mama x de tadi.. Barulah excited terkinja2 bila nampak mama..:) terus hilang letih mama yg tak seberapa bekerja..

Masa kat office, sejam sekali mama akan phone rumah.. Tak senang hati mama pikirkan apa yg Z buat kat rumah nun.. Nasib baik lah kawan2 mama amat memahami.. Kerja pun x bnyk lagi skrg nih, so mama agak relax di office.. Bila dh banyak masa terluang tu, mula lah mama fikirkan Z. Maybe mgu depan ok la skit kot perasaan mama nih.. The good thing is, ade lg 2 org kawan mama yg juga baru balik from maternity leave (1st child). So, ade lah teman utk berkongsi kesedihan mama yg terpaksa berpisah dgn anak nih :)

P/s: Oh, mama baru dapat tahu, rupanya Queen akan datang melawat Ireland next 2 week. Dan antara agendanya ialah untuk singgah di college (tempat keje mama).. Waah, selamat dtg queen!! oh dan lagi, Obama pun akan dtg the week after.. Uish, busy betul college nanti..


P/p/s: walaupun mama baru masuk keje sehari dua, gaji mama bulan ni dah masuk!! Weheyyy..!!

Sayu.. Pilu.. Sendu..

Esok mama start keje balik.. After nearly 12 months (1 month mc + 6 months maternity leave + 4 months unpaid leave + 2 wks annual leave) bercuti, now its time to get back to work.. mmg berat hati nak ke office semula.. And even worst, to think that i cant spend more time with my precious one, really break my heart to pieces..

Tadi pagi, i spent time golek2 with Z dlm bilik sampai pukul 10 lebih.. Besok, pukul 7.30 jer mesti dh bisi2 nk bersiap suma.. So no more golek2 gurau2 di pagi hari.. Huhuhu..

Tadi tgh hari sampai sekarang, i hold him tightly to my chest.. Kalau boleh biar melekap bau Z kat badan mama.. Hopefully esok kurang la sikit rindu mama..

And now as the sun settling down, i just couldnt stop crying..

Mama loves u so much sayang.. Tapi mama hv to work. Papa pun masih baru lg dlm career nya compared to mama.. So, mama kena lah tolong papa.. Dgn keadaan ekonomi ireland yg sgt teruk skrg nih, agak rugi lah kalau mama tinggalkan keje mama nih.. Tgk la macam mana, mama still hv 6 weeks parental leave. Mama akan cuba apply utk bekerja 4 hari seminggu saje.. Harap2 bos mama approve laa.. maybe in future, kalau ada part time vacancy kat opis mama, mama akan cuba apply..

Aahh..sedih lah bila fikirkan sayang mama yg bakal ditinggalkan ni.. Mama rasa all working mommies out there mmg sangat tabah dan kuat.. Mama pun berdoa semoga mama kuat. Mama tahu Z will be fine at home.. Cuma mama aje yg tak sanggup nk berpisah dgn Z nih.. Sigh...

Mama's belated birthday present

Masa birthday mama haritu, papa seperti biasa bertanya apa yg mama nak as a present (he always hasnt got clue on what to get for my birthday!!). mama pun mcm x de idea nk apa.. Semenjak ada Z nih, mama mmg dh jarang shopping utk diri sendiri.. Semua pun hanya utk Z ajee.. So, pikir punya pikir punya pikir.. Ting! Terdapat lah idea utk dapatkan cctv :)..

Yes, mama a bit paranoid here, but when it comes to Z health n safety, i wouldnt risk a thing!

We I did a bit or survey, and decided to get this basic set. Takde lah memuaskan sangat but ok lah for the time being. At least nanti bila mama masuk keje, mama boleh la record ape yg berlaku kat rumah..

Kalau ikutkan, mama will prefer cctv yg boleh view on iphone tu (IP network). So, mama boleh jer skodeng anytime i want. But the one yg diorang jual kat kedai tu x de yg boleh recording facilities. Takkan lah mama nk kene online 24 hrs plak. Kang tak pasal2 kene buang keje nanti.. Nak beli online, mesti lambat lg baru boleh dapat.. Mama dh nak start keje lusa nih.. ( mama nih mmg cenggini, kalau nk sesuatu mende tu, mmg tang tang tu jugak nk kene dapatkan..:p) So, ini pun jadik laa..



So Z, please do remember to smile on the camera! :)

On another note, Z is unwell at the moment. Cranky jer n nk berdukung sesaje.. Temperature suam2 skit laa.. Around 37.2 gitu.. Perut pun ok2 aje.. Maybe nk tumbuh gigi kot.. Mama tgk gusi Z dh putih2 tu.. Cepat2 baik yer sayang.. Susah hati mama nk tinggal pegi keje nih..

8 months (already?)

Dah 8 bulan 2 hari laaaa... ;)
Perkembangan setakat ini, masih kurang berkembang... still 7.2kg. Tapi ini budak makan banyak aje, mana pegi suma makanan tu pun ntah lerr..

Meniarap tergolek2 sgt laju, tapi masih pusing2 360 degree aje la.. bekerja keras utk merangkak. Asik bontot jer tertonggek2 hehehe

Tido masih bermasaalah.. Mesti nk mengamuk2 dulu.. Kena dukung pusing2 satu rumah, baru nak tido..
Lagi satu masalah tido, suka mimpi yg sedih2.. Terutama time maghrib. Sekarang nih maghrib pukul 8.30 gitu.. Mmg time tu dah lama dia tido dah.. Pastu nangis2.. kadang2 pilu jer bunyi tangisan dia.. Siap berair mata suma, tapi masih pejam.. Haih, seram sejuk mama jadiknyaa.. Memang keluar la suma ayat2 quran zikir2 dan doa..

Dah pandai 'hi 5' and buat 'twinkle-twinkle'.
Duduk with support still senget2 lg
Mainan kegemaran, piano.
Suka kentut kuat2.. Pastu sengih2..hahaha, kurang sopan laa nak oiii..
kalau nampak jer papa, mesti jerit2 panggil dukung (sbb mama jarang nk dukung, awak berat laa sayang)

Mama baru perasan, Z nih macam pasif skit bila keluar rumah. Mesti diam n behave jer.. Tambah2 kalau org asing agah2 dia. Mesti muka mcm x de respond jer.. Maybe sbb mama pun jarang bwk kuar kot.. Peghak ler jadiknya.. Hmm, bukan mama x mo slalu2 bwk jalan.. Kat luar tu sejuk la Z.. Mama takut nanti Z demam.. Now weather dah semakin cantik, mama akan selalu bwk Z kuar yer lepas ni..

Semalam Z dh start mamam nasik with chicken. Mama guna brown rice. Masa memula buat tu, mcm starchy. Pekattt..! And Z dont like it :(. Mmg brown rice mcm tu ke ar? Penat mama search for tips online, tak jumpa pun
Anyway, 2nd time mama try tambah air banyak2.. So dh kurang pekatnye.. Andddd Z loves it! Habis suma bubur. Harini pun sama lah, lunch n dinner, both licin..susu still jugak minum the same quantity.. fuh, kagum betol..

So far alhamdulillah, x de sbrg allergy reaction yet. Tapi kene tunggu sampai cukup 4-days waiting period dulu laa..kalau everything ok, nanti mama tambah sayur2 plak yer..
See, i love my bubur ayam McD

Look who's holding his head up!

Terlupa pulak nk update pasal nih. Dah more than 3 weeks dh Z can hold his head up! Walaupun still a bit wobbly, but its actually a very BIG achivement for him. Even writing this make mama want to cry.. proudly :)... Syukur alhamdulillah..

Well done sayang mama.. Muahss!!!

Foreign land we call home

We have moved back to dublin during the weekend. Still a lot of unpacking to do. Dgn Z yg still not fully recovered yet, i feel a bit stressful at the moment. Lg 2 mgu saye akan start keje, rumah blom siap kemas, and paling tension, cik bibik tu still x bleh nk diharap sepenuhnya.. Kamonlah, dh 4 bulan ko stay with us, tak kan x reti2 lg kot nk handle Z. Ingat org bawak dia dtg sini utk duduk goyang kaki jer gamaknya.. Mcm kejap tadi, saye dgr Z melalak2, saya tanya la kenapa dgn Z tu (saye tgh mengemas kat bilik). Dia ckp Z mengamuk nk tido.. Skali saye kuar tgk, rupanya Z poopo.. Bau dh semerbak dh, ape hidung ko tersumbat ker apo? Ni saye still ada kat rumah lg nih.. Camner nanti bila saye pegi keje??? Hmm..kena banyak2 bersabar jer laa.. Hish, kalau nk komplen pasal cik bibik ni, sampai ke esok pun x habiss..arrgghhh

Anyway, we rent an apartment in city centre. Tak de lah besar pun, but selesa enough for our small family. Paling penting quite close to my office. Mmg sejak dulu lg i love to stay in city centre, so i dont have to waste my time traffic. Rumah before this pun lg dekat dgn office. Duduk dekat nih, bleh jalan jer pegi keje.. Pukul 8.45 kuar pun sempat lg..hehe.. And hopefully, by 5.30 i can already reach home and spent time with my baby :)

Tapi downside nye, tak dapat la nk duduk rumah yg besar2. Suma apt standard lah 2-3 bedroom aje.. Hmm tgk lah, kalau rezeki kami masih lama kat ireland nih, terpaksalah jugak kami pindah ke kawasan luar bandar skit.. Yer lah, nanti Z dh besar, nak main beskal laa.. Main bola laa.. Mana ada space kat sini..

Eh, ape2 jer la mama bebel nih.. Kalau dh stress mcm ginilah jadiknya.. Baik mama sambung unpacking jer sementara Z tgh tido tu...


Photo from rent.ie

Susu Oh Susu - part III (the soy)

Lately i read from few blogs pasal some negative effect of soy milk. Well, i already knew about this issue even before i introduced soy milk to zach. Since at that time he shown some symptoms of Lactose Intolerence (LI), reluctantly, i hv to give him Isomil la jugak. From my reading, the effect of untreated LI is far more worst than those negative (unproven) impact of soy milk.

Anyway, i also read somewhere that normally by 6 month of age, i can try to intoduce back the cows based milk to my baby. There is one type of LI di mana by 6 months, baby dh boleh accept lactose. So, during our GP visit last week, i pun asked his opinion laa..

He agreed with my intention to try the cows based milk. But it has to be introduced gradually. Memula kasik about 25% new milk with 75% soy milk for about a week. Then baru increase to 50:50 and so on - which will take about 1 month before he can fully moved to cows based (provided that he has no reaction laa)

Since last week he was unwell, only this morning then i did tried. 1 scoop of SMA stage 2 and 3 scoop of SMA soy.
Result....

















































Here is my boy, curling on my arm. Very weak n asleep after crying non stop due to diorrhea n vomitting. (And he never vomitted even once since birth!)

Rang hubby at work, he grab his friend (the pead), and they confirmed this is due to LI.

So, there u go. Sorry sayang... Mama will not feed u with the cow milk anymore... Mama harap sgt one day u will be able to consume milk and all its goodness.. Tapi kalau x boleh jugak pun, x apa lah.. I know few friends yg mmg lactose intolerence, and they are fine aje.. :)
Cepat2 baik yer.. Tak mo nangis2 n muntah2 lg k.. Mama love u sooo much!!


Disclaimer: NO, i did not changed his milk because of what i read on other mommies blogs. I have plan to change his milk from the beginning since i already knew the good n the bad of soy milk. Atleast now i know for sure he is lactose intolerence and i dont have to feel bad about myself for not giving him the better milk.