ENT, Hospitals & Anxiety

Z had ENT appointment on Monday. For once, I thought his anxiety level has improve for the last 3-4 months, but I was so wrong...

Last ENT appointment (Sept/Oct last year) wasnt that bad actually. He did cry a bit when the doctor examine him, but that was it. Takde lah sampai meraung2. Tapi kali ni, he was crying as soon as we enter the consultant room! And the consultant room happen to be the same room as Mr Samy (Surgeon)' room. Sebelum nih jumpa doctor (registrar) on a different room, probably thats why he was ok..

Memang tiap kali jumpa Mr Samy Z akan melalak mcm nampak antu.. Mr Samy is a very nice surgeon actually, dia pun heran kenapa Z asik melalak tiap kali jumpa dia. Mama bagitau la sebab Z ada anxiety expecially bila jumpa strangers, walaupun pelik jugak sebab dia mcm ok jer kalau jumpa doctor lain. But it makes me realised 1 thing now, Z is still having trauma from his surgery last year! It does makes senses now. Patutla dia asyik melalak tiap kali pegi out patient dept sebab kat situ la dia slalu jumpa Mr Samy. And he remembered Mr Samy, Mr Samy is not a stranger to him, but probably somebody that make him 'suffer'.

Aaahh poor Z. Bila di ingat kembali saat Z before surgery last year, memang mama rasa nak peluk Z ketat2. Not the actual surgery yg Z takut. He was knocked out during the surgery, so he wont remember. But the day before that (and of course the whole 3 weeks hospital stay in general), when they want to find out about the blockage. He was wide awake at that time. They rushed him to emergency recess room, then poke him all over the place to empty his tummy. He was screaming so loud at that time. Mama plak hanya mampu berdiri di hujung bilik sambil melalak. After that he was rushed back and forth to the x ray room with camera IN his tummy, with coloured liquid IN his tummy and segala macam test lagilah ---- while he's wide awake! Honestly, mama pun trauma bila kenangkan the situation, apetah lagi Z.. Masih terngiang2 di telinga mama Z menjerit2 'awayyyy!! awayyyyy!! gwayyy!!' yes, he cant speak, but that's exactly his word at that time. actually for the whole 3 weeks stay in the hospital. Tiap kali dia nampak nurse or doctor datang jer, mesti dia jerit 'gwayyy!!'.

Day 5 Post SBO Operation

Memula mama heran jugak, apa yang Z jeritkan. Asik ulang mende yang sama jer, and its a new words, very different to his regular babbling. Bila Mairead (Home Teacher) datang the next day, dia yg bagitau mama OMG, I think he say 'Go Away!' . We never heard the words again since he's out of the hospital. So he really meant what he said.. Mairead informed Maeve (Psychologist) about that, and she thinks Z must has traumatic experience when he was in NICU, that's where the anxiety comes actually. Pelik juga, takkan la umo 2-3 hari dah boleh ingat (he was in NICU for 16 days), apparently it could come subconciously according to Maeve..

Day 2 of life - Post DA Operation

Back to ENT appointment, this time for his hearing. Dah 2 kali pegi buat hearing test in clinic North George's St (not hospital), but wasnt successful because Z wont cooperate or in other word, Z was crying! So they refer us to hospital, with the hope that ENT team here could perform the test. Which is not. But at least this time they could do pressure test, and it was confirmed that he had fluid behind his ears. The Consultant still want to have the hearing test result before he could decide putting a grommet. So we have to reschedule the test in 6 weeks time. 

Z during ABR test in Gleneagles, Msia summer 2012

Next time the test will be performed in a separate building, so hopefully Z tak akan phobia sangat. Mama plan nak lalu ikut jalan belakang, then straight to the test room. According to ENT, kalau tak berjaya jugak next time, she will dicuss few other option that we can do for the tes involving GA kot.. Tengok ler camner.. hearing could impact his speech and also his balancing skill! Walaupun his ABR (auditory brain response) test is ok, but the blockage/fluid could impact his hearing. Mama tahu Z boleh je dengar most of the time, but we just dont know at what level. Mama nak rule out all other problem first before we go to autism route.

Liffey Valley

Sabtu haritu Z ke Eymran's 4th Birthday party dekat Pirate Village @ Liffey Valley. Bebudak lain enjoy ler main all their activities. Z macam biasa, berkepit jer dengan mama and papa.. Ada la jugak ketikanya yg dia turun n jalan2 meniti tepi2 pagar sambil tengok bebudak lain main.

Naik train pun nak duduk sendiri jer :)

One thing I am very proud of him is, he never cry or even show any discomfort during our stay there :). Apart from our group, ada la hundreds more kids running around kot. Mama agak risau pada mulanya, mesti Z akan melalak nanti. But he proves me wrong :)

Birthday boy

Alhamdulillah, it was a long waaay to come this far, but he has slowly shows a lot of improvements. 

I am very proud of you dear!

First Salon Haircut

Sabtu mama bawak Z pegi gunting rambut - for the first time - di kedai. Mama nak dia gunting betul2 pendek, tapi org tu gunting pendek sikit jer.. Lebih kurang mama buat jer.. Rugi duit n air mata Z jaa.. Tak pe la, first experience for Z hehe.. 

Masa mula2 sampai tu, mama biarkan Z melayan ride peppa pig kat luar. Bila tiba giliran Z, baru masuk dalam. Masuk2 jer terus melalak.. Ada 4 seat (cars n plane) then setiap seat ada tv kat depan. Diorang kasik belon n pasang peppa pig, bila Z macam dh calm down sikit, baru helen start. 

Of course la dia melalak semula lepas tu.. Mama suruh helen carry on jer, he wont stop crying. Walaupun Z melalak, at least dia tak meronta2. cuma tangan tu kadang2 libas sana sini jugak la.. Hehe mesti pressure jer aunty helen tu gunting rambut Z. Senget2. Memang tak berpuas hati. Tapi pendek la jugak.. 

Actually sejak seminggu ni mama perasan rambut Z banyak gugur. Memula tu mama tak kisah sangat, maybe biasa jer kot ada musim2 rambut gugur (ada ke?). 

Tapi last 3-4 days ni macam bertambah teruk jer.. Kalau bangun tido tu mesti ada kat bantal n tilam. Dalam bath tub pun. Kalah rambut mama.. Kalau sikat pun mesti ada jer kat sikat. Sebelum nih x pernah nampak pulak.. Dekat jaket pun ada.. 

Something is not right here, so macam biasa i started googling.. Masih belum habis membaca lagi. But hair lost happen to about 10% in DS. 

Mama dah start risau nih.. Hopefully its not alopecia areata (AA). Harap2nya hanyalah sebab irritatation kat scalp. Sebab Z memang slalu garuk2 kepala, especially lepas mandi. Allergic to something or maybe just heat. Sekarang nih summer kan, panas sikit. Dia memang selalu ada masalah kulit time2 summer..

Hopefully rambut dah pendek nih, gatal2 dan ketidakselesaan Z akan berkurangan.. Tapi kalau still gugur jugak lepas nih, kenalah jumpa doctor..

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2 tahun 10 bulan

Dah dekat 3 tahun dah anak mama.. dah lama mama rasa tak update pasal development Z.

Berat: 10.9kg (latest)

Tinggi: 89cm (April)

In term of skills, mama rasa in the last 2-3 months Z has improve a lot. Sekarang nih sedang galak memanjat. semua tempat dia nak memanjat. Cruising pun makin jauh. InsyaAllah, harapnya tak lama lagi Z boleh berjalan la.. Haritu physio Emer datang and buat full asessment. Dia cakap in term of physical, Z memang tak ada masalah (except the low tone of course). His legs are fine, his posture is perfect, his spine also good. Mama risau la takut dia ada flat feet ke, curvy spine ke.. because all those could affect his walking ability. Alhamdulillah everything is ok. Cuma dia jer yang tak nak berjalan lagi. Manja. He has no interest to explore around, that's why dia tak nak berjalan.

Speech pulak, Z dah banyak babbling sekarang nih. Sejak awal tahun ni memang bertambah tambah bising mulutnya. Tapi still tak de words keluar. Sebut mama pun belum. But he likes to sing (not so much in tune) to his favorite song. Twinkle-twinkle little star.. Dora.. Head & Shoulder.. Old McDonald.. etc.. kalau those songs keluar kat TV or mama nyanyi, mesti Z akan turut serta; dalam bahasa dan irama dia la.. but I noticed the sound he makes is always the same. So memang dia menyanyi la..

Anxiety pun dah improve a lot. Z dah tak menangis di sekolah. Pagi mama hantar (sejak hari pertama ke sekolah after surgery) dah takde drama air mata. Cikgu pun dah tak perlu nak dukung Z. Biar jer dia merayap merata kelas.Dengan home teacher, Mairead pun Z dah ok, walaupun di rumah. Paling aneh 2 minggu lepas appointment dengan Kerri SLT. Sebelum ni Z kalau nampak Kerri macam nampak hantu. Infact, appointment dengan Kerri la the first time when I noticed Z has strangers anxiety. Ingat lagi tahun lepas, dia punya melalak.. mama pun nak tumpang sekaki. Since then, jumpa jer Kerri, memang tak payah pujuk la, meraung jer kejanya. But 2 minggu lepas, for the first time, at home pulak tu, Z tak melalak!!! bukan tu aje, siap ajak Kerry main bola lagi. Bila Kerry nak balik, baru dia melalak - tak bagi Kerry balik sebab nak main bola. AMAZING! 

Di sekolah

Masa jumpa Maeve (Psych) re austism (nanti la mama update pasal nih), dia tanya do you think his anxiety level now is reducing, because he is really recovering or because he just get use to those people? That's make me realised.. Actually bila jumpa orang baru (eg: ENT) Z still melalak. strangers menyapa di tengah jalan pun Z tak layan. Pegi tempat baru pun Z masih melalak. So he still has anxiety, but the level might have lowered and the reason his life is much more calmer is because he just know or get use to a lot of people now. His circle of trust is expanding.. Tak per la, at least ada improvement kan... :)

I now focusing on his hearing. Walaupun his ABR test comes out normal (20-30 db), but mama tak rasa Z dengar dengan sempurna. Dah 2 kali jumpa ENT. The first one, tak dapat buat apa pun sebab Z melalak and he got bad congestion as well. Last week jumpa lagi, dah boleh la test sikit. But he still not cooperate much. Plus his ear canal is too narrow, doctor tu tak dapat nak access betul2. But she thinks he has fluid in his middle ear. But he never had any ear infection. Dia cakap tak semestinya kalau ada fluid, kena infection. Banyak jer kids yang not even realised they had fluid in their ear. He probably had those since he was little, he already get used to that and the sound surrounding. No wonder he is not able to say any words. Papa pun jadi 'wawa'. because that's how he heard it. 

Masa first time jumpa ENT dulu (early May) dia suggest letak olive oil untuk clear the wax. Mama dah try banyak kali prior to 2nd appointment. Memang takde apa langsung yang keluar. Dia cakap maybe fluid tu dah keras dah, thats why tak boleh cair.. So she has refer us to ENT surgeon. Z might need grommet/tube on his ear.

the appointment will be in Augus - kebetulan Z dah dapat appointment untuk his tonsil (re sleep problem), boleh sekali harung.. 

Sedih jugak mama rasa sebenarnya.. 'If' his hearing was sorted earlier, he probably wont have much problem with speech now.. Hearing test normally done when they were 3 months old. tapi Z dah pindah randah.. Pastu susah giler nak masuk health system kat sini.. Everything is delayed. ABR test tu pun buat with private masa balik bercuti di malaysia last year. Kesian Z.. Dia boleh la dengar, cuma bende yang dia dengar tu lain jer la.. That's why he is confused and wont be able to pronounce it.

Tak per la, better late than never.. I dont think I can wait until August. August nanti examination jer dulu. kalau betul, ntah bila pulak surgery nya (some people on DS ireland forum say they have to wait 3-6 months just to get that tiny grommet surgery..) I read from few other forum, some people recommend EARDOC, katanya boleh membantu open up the midle ear and loosen up the wax/fluid. So mama dah oder semalam. Hopefully membantu and tak perlukan surgery. Tapi mama rasa ear wax Z tu dah keras batu dah kot.. tak sure la berkesan ke dak.. tengok ler macam mana nanti.. yang penting kita berusaha yer dak?

Home Teaching @ School

Semalam Mairead (Home Teacher) call mama. Dia ada sessi dengan Z di skolah. And she was dying to update mama about the positive progress they had in school :D

Katanya dia sampai pukul 10.30 camtu and Z tengah didukung oleh cikgu Aoife sambil merengek2. (masa mama tinggalkan dia pagi tadi, memang dia melalak pun..) Minggu lepas kan cikgu cuti, so harini dia macam x berapa nak click sangat la dengan cikgu. Nampak2 jer Mairead, terus dia hulurkan tangan nak suruh Mairead dukung. Memang pelik, 2 minggu lepas masa Mairead datang (Full House) kan Z melalak2.. tapi time tu ramai sangat orang kot, that's why la dia upset..

According to Mairead, sessi kali ni sangat2 berbeza. Z bukan saje tak melalak, malahan dia dah kenal Mairead and mahu bekerjasama. Sepatutnya sessi dia sejam jer, tapi sebab best sangat Mairead stay sampai 90 mins. Tak sampai hati nak tinggal katanya. Memula sampai dia ajak baca buku. few books jugak la termasuk buku yang Mairead buat khas (ada gambar2 yang related dengan Z, i.e. sekolah, cikgu, papa n kawan2.. ) Pastu main blocks, pastu main blow2 kipas n macam2 lagi.. kawan2 lain pun join, and he didn't mind :). sambil2 main sambil nyanyi2 Z suka lagu humpty dumpty katanya. Setiap kali dia habis menyanyi mesti Z suruh lagi, so Mairead ajar sign 'again' and 'finish'. Hopefully nanti Z pandai sign la.. pastu Mairead kata Z asik sebut WAWA and AAH.. and he also likes 'horse' and 'cow'. mama citer la Z mmg suka mama make sound horse n cow. dia akan turn to those page over and over and look at mama n suruh mama bunyi :). Memang excited la Mairead bercerita.. katanya lagi sepanjang sessi tu, tangan Z atas peha dia jer.. bonding sungguh!

Anyhoo, Mairead sangat2 berpuas hati. Cikgu Aoife and Laura pun kagum tengok Z happy. Mairead nak diorang tahu yang Z sebenarnya ada banyak kebolehan and hopefully they will try to help him reach his full potential. Z boleh buat banyak benda di rumah, tapi bila ke sekolah, dia lebih suka bersendiri and clingy dengan cikgu dia. Dia cakap Z terlalu attach sangat dengan mama, sebatu lah bila mama takde dia akan sedih.. He dont trust other people. Plan dia supaya lepas ni Z akan lebih enjoy di sekolah and start making friends. Harap2nya lepas ni Z akan lebih ceria di creche.. Takde la mama susah hati nak tinggalkan Z di sekolah nanti..  Hopefully we could overcome his anxiety soon. Next time dia akan bawak Maeve (Psychologist) datang tengok Z.

Mairead ada buat buku pasal sekolah. Dia suruh mama tunjuk kat Z n talk about it all the time... Hopefully Z akan lebih familiar dgn skolah dia n will feels safe there.

Wobbler Safari Class

Alhamdulillah.. Syukur sangat.. Mama sangat terharu dan berterima kasih dengan Mairead..Ada jugak orang yang begitu sincere nak bantu Z. Walaupun dia cakap that's her duty to do that, tapi banyak beza orang yang buat kerja semata2 kerana duit or because they love what they are doing kan.. 

Follow Up 26.5 months

Haritu update pasal ASD jer, now mama nak update pasal mende lain pulak.

Weight: 10.5kg (30th percentile)

Height: 88cm (91st percentile)

* DS Growth Chart

Z dah masuk kategori underweight. Selama nih around 40th-50th percentile, so doctor tak bising walaupun Z kurus. Now dia dh start bising and she will request the dietician to meet us again soon.. Berat Z mmg turun pun semenjak masuk skool, makan dah la sikit, then minum tak nak langsung. Doctor kata stakat minum 2 botol sehari dah ok dah.. Yer la, memang pun ok.. Cuma selama ni Z minum 6-7 botol sehari. Bila tetiba turun jadik 3-4 botol jer, kompem la berat dia pun turun kan.. pastu lak, makan memang kurang kat skolah nun.. demam2 yang berpanjangan lagi.. all in all, mama rasa ok jer alasan2 tu.. hihihih.. Anyway, doctor nasihatkan mama letak butter banyak2 dalam every meals untuk tambah fat. (Yuk!) Hmm.. Z nih makan nasik hari2, bukan pasta doctor oii.. celah mana pulak mama nak letak butter nih.. hmmm... but she reminds us yang the bigger (fatter) Z will be, the better his immune system.. hmm.. ok lah, mama carik resepi baru lah nanti..

Blood test, thyroid level, blood count  semua normal (ada sedikit abnormal with lymphocyte (darah putih), but that's due to viral infection).  Masih lagi ada sedikit sisa2 infection. Doctor nasihatkan suruh perhatikan Z. kalau dia dah sampai tahap tak mau makan or minum tu, maksudnya teruk lah tu.. kena kasik antibiotic jugak nanti. Tapi we dont want antibiotic for the next 6 weeks sebab nak buat stem cell treatment tu nanti.. so, better make sure Z tak demam teruk lah from now on..

Dr Murnaghan kata Z dah tak tunjuk sangat dah ciri2 strangers anxiety :). sebab dia x menangis sangat pun masa jumpa doctor. Menangis time doctor buat check up jer. apart from that he was behaved :)). Alhamdulillah.. after 6 months we started with variety of programme to overcome his anxiety, it does show favorable result :) --- (YAKIN BOLEH!)

Last week juga (Selasa) dah start with Home Teaching. Programme ni yang mama nanti2 kan sebenarnya. Masa memula register dengan SMH dulu, diorang kata akan bagi cikgu masa umo Z 18 bulan. Pastu government cut budget, so umo 24 bulan pulak.. end up, umo 26 bulan baru dapat. well..better late than never.

Home Teacher Z namanya Mairead. According to Dr Murnaghan, we got the best teacher from SMH :). So, Mairead akan jumpa Z every 2 week. Ni bukan lah cikgu yg datang mengajar academic.. but her area will involve every aspect of early learning. from communication, occupational, play, sing, routine, sensory. Anything related with Z akan jadi her responsibilities. sampailah Z masuk skolah nanti.

Pertemuan pertama haritu, we just set out our objectives. Mama nak Z start with sign language (mama pun kena lah p skolah), then feeding issue, pointing, gross n fine motor and sensory issue. Dia cakap dia akan jumpa Z di rumah and juga di skolah. At least dia boleh pantau apa yg cikgu Z buat kat skolah. Mama ok aje.. the best part is, Z tak melalak langsung pun masa jumpa mairead. Mairead ajak dia main2 n nyanyi2 pun dia layankan aje.. hehehe good boy :)

So, tu jer lah update terkini untuk mgu lepas.. banyak lagi nak update sebenarnya.. Mama sangat2 excited!! but I dont have that much time at the moment. Lg 2 minggu nak balik msia, banyak nak settle. so, will find sometime to update more later.

Oh 1 more thing, (penting nih!!) weekend haritu aunty meri n aunty rini datang melepak dirumah. Kakak Caroline pun ada lah. Diorang melepak dari tengah hari sampailah ke malam. Dah lama tak melepak lama2 camnih, memang berpuas hatilah kami. The main reason kenapa kami boleh melepak dengan tenang adalah..

Z was playing with Caroline!!!

Ok, takde lah sepanjang masa diorang bermain berdua.. sekejap2 jer pun.. Z nih kedekut sikit, pantang Caroline pegang toys dia, dia pun sibuk nk g rampas. huhuhu.. tapi yang paling penting Z sudah tak menangis!! YES!! Sebelum nih kalau diorang dtg melepak, mama end up kena duduk dlm bilik temankan Z sebab Z akan melalak tiap kali kitorang berborak. So diorang pun slalunya sekadar datang sejam dua, then balik jer la.. NOW not anymore! bersantai bergossip sampai ke malam. ada la juga ketikanya yg Z merengek2, terutama bila kami burst into laugh. but those are tolerable :). Apart from that dia either main2 or tengok tv tanpa menghiraukan orang2 asing disekeliling dia :)

WOW, mama masih tak percaya sebenarnya.. bukan jer mama, aunty meri n aunty rini pun. Aunty rini selalu complaint sebab tak pernah dapat main dengan Z. Jangankan main, nak tengok muka pun susah. Sekarang tidak lagi. Such a HUGE relief..

Alhamdulillah.. Lepas ni memang akan selalulah diorang datang melepak lagi.. takde lah mama pun tension jer terperuk di rumah :)

Claphandies

Photo courtesy of DS Dublin Group

Baru2 ni mama discover pasal DS Group Dublin (that's how I know about the weaning n cup training seminar last week tuu..) They even have specific group for Toddler (age 2-5). So this group mmg akan bertemu once a month. Ala2 playgroup gitu lah.. But it is handled by claphandies. Bayaran €5 saje khas untuk kanak2 DS.. diorang sediakan cikgu n all the equipments. 

Kelas dia best, macam Gymboree, ada nyanyi2 and main2.. they provide all the toys, cuma tak sebanyak kelas gymboree, sebab kelas nih buat kat community centre jer. kalau nak full class, kenalah join 'skolah' diorang. kat mana pun ntah ler. Anyway, the good thing about this class is, cikgu dia pun mmg specialised in special kids. dia communicate in both english and sign language. pastu kawan2 pun memang sama2 spesel dengan Z. So, mereka amat memahami.. (memahami apa?)

Haaa.. as expected, Z of course ler melalak!!! First time, plus buat pulak pukul 2. Nap time dia between 1-2. tapi masa hari kejadian tu, dia tido pukul 1.30 dah pun.. excited naik bus ^.^'. So, masa kelas started, Z masih nyenyak tido.. mama kejutkan aje, terus lah bad mood. pastu tengok pula muka2 yang tak dikenali.. adoiii.. 

we stayed for 30 mins gitu jer kot.. penat dah mama melayan budak melalak, so we just left. Ada la about 6 toddler and 1 baby. Best la, I wish we could join more after this. Tapi next month x bleh join sebab diorang buat time kite balik Msia... hopefully December nanti boleh la join balik.. the only thing is, kompem lah Z akan melalak lagi kan.. jumpa sebulan sekali, x de nya dia akan ingat muka2 mereka.. hmmm...

anyhoo, mama lupa bawak phone lah haritu. So, no photos taken.

btw, masa dalam kelas tu, ada sorang budak nih nama apa ntah.. Robert ke apa ntah.. I wonder how old he is.. nampak macam 3 years ++ gak kot.. He could speak 2-3 words sentence and also using sign language. Masa Z melalak, dia siap tutup telinga and cakap, NOISY! hahaha, kan dah kena marah ;P mama pun pindah ler kebelakang sikit lepas tu..huhuhu.. Anyway he is VERY clever! he could even read a simple story book! o.O (buku cerita kanak2 yang ada 1 sentence each page tu..) mama sangat berminat nak berkenalan dengan mummy dia.. tapi sebab Z asik buat perangai, x sempat la pulak beramah mesra. Hopefully we will meet them again in December...

Seminar on weaning & cup

Seminar di pagi Sabtu. 10-1pm @ Bewleys Hotel.

Bersemangat mama n papa (n Z of course) pegi. Duduk tak sampai 15 minit, Z dah start mengamuk2.. So mama n papa kena bergilir2. sorang dengar ceramah, sorang kena bawak Z keluar. Ceramah habis pukul 11. Lepastu ada teknikal session pulak. The SLT supposed to come to each parent and show one-to-one technique based on their requirement. Mama cepat2 angkat tangan and mintak dia jumpa kita dulu. Kalau tak, bakal mengganggu orang lain pulak.. Lepas jer one-on-one session dengan Libby tu, terus kami blah..

Meeting in Progress, tapi mama dgn Z kat luar ;(

Btw, Z kan masih on mashed/pureed type of food. dah banyak kali cuba kasik yg ber tekstur, mesti dia akan gagging, then terus dia refuse the food. Z actually has Oral Sensitivity. Patutlah memang payah bebenor nak masukkan apa2 dalam mulut dia. Nak berus gigi pun macam berperang! So Libby nasihatkan we work more on his oral stimulation. Pastu dia suruh kami tanya our SLT on Oral Desensitisation programme. Hmm.. tu yg masalah tu, SLT pun tak start lagi. Memang la dah penah jumpa Kerri, but thats more on assesment, not really the real SLT programme. Sigh.. for now, mama lah yg kena carik teknik2 tersebut..

Lagi satu, mama baru tahu, eating habit ni pun related to his trunk control. Selagi tak boleh duduk dengan stabil, memang susah diorang nak makan. Sangat penting sebenarnya. Apetah lagi untuk makan sendiri. Z kan memang ada huge problem with his trunk muscles :(. Patutlah dia sampai sekarang x pernah masukkan any object (except his own hands) to his mouth. Itu semua boleh membantu dia makan sendiri and introduce him to new textures. Sigh.. kalaulah mama tahu nih from beginning.. now trunk control dia dah better, but he already skip few steps. so, agak susah la nak train him especially when he already has his own habit. sepatutnya masa umo 7-8 bulan lagi.. ada teknik n equipment for that.. huhuhu.. so for now, we just have to start stimulating his mouth area dulu lah. then consistently introducing textured food. Start with food that melt in his mouth. mcm biskut ke.. coklat ke.. biskut mmg slalu dah kasik, dia mmg ludah jer.. maybe coklat will help.. hmmm..

Latest Sippy Cup, sama dengan yg digunakan di sekolah

Pasal cup drinking pulak.. dia x suggest sangat guna sippy cup (dah berjenis2 sippy cup mama beli..). sebab diorang still kena suck. better introduce minum from cawan biasa terus. doidy cup is a good start. Well, we have doidy cup for nearly a year now. Tak penah pakai pun.. (sebab Z x suka) so, mama akan guna from now on. 

Doidy Cup

Also, straw drinking. bagus jugak for his speech later. It help them to control their toungue as well. yes, mama dah tahu. 6 months ago I did the research. So, I bought this Lil' Gripper from Playtex. 

Lil' Gripper

Konon2 the best first straw cup, sebab mummy boleh squeez the middle part. Mummy diorang ada super power kot. Sebab bukan saja mama, papa pun x bleh squeez. keras gilos!. End up tak guna jugak.. Libby suggest this cute bear bottle from thinkingtoys.ie. Masa mama carik dulu, x de kat ireland/uk nih. Ada brand talktools (honeybear) from US jer, pastu postage lg mahal drpd bottle.. That's why mama end up beli playtex (lg mahal sebenarnya, but shipping cost murah jer). Nasib baik this cute bear bottle tak mahal sangat. So, mama dah order, we will try soon k :)

Mr Juice Bear

Walaupun sekejap jer, I think I have learn a lot! Next time, Z tinggal rumah jer lah. Kacau!

Meet New Psychologist

Last week mama dapat call dari Maeve, the new Psychologist for St Michaels's House. She just want to get to know us and continue what ever we are doing with the previous psychologist - Karyn.

So semalam, mama ambik half day off and bawak Z ke SMH. Actually, we last met Karyn in July. Lots of action being taken eversince to overcome Z's anxiety. We've been to playgroup (Gymboree) and also starting slowly with creche. And for me, Z has shown massive improvement. So, that's what I've been telling Maeve. Unfortunately she doesnt have details on Z's history sebab katanya Karyn cuma leave a note to follow up with Z aje.. Tak kasik apa2 details pun.. Mama lah kena cerita dari mula hingga akhir apa yg kami dah buat so far..

Tengah tunggu bas

According to her observation, Z doesnt really shown any INTENSE anxiety pun, so she does praised mama for what we have done so far :D. Sebabnya semalam Z mmg tak nangis pun masa jumpa Maeve. Mama kasik dia main phone. So diam jer lah dia kat sebelah. Mama borak2 n ketawa2 pun dia buat tak layan jer.. Towards the end tu, ada la jugak dia start buat perangai, but biasa lah tu kata Maeve, toddler mana boleh duduk diam..

But mama still raised concern about Z's anxiety. It definitely does not go away 100% yet. In fact, mama rasa cuma 50% jer kot. Sebab, memang lah Z dah ok with stangers surrounding, tapi kalau di approach, dia masih lagi akan melalak. Kat sekolah pun, Z ok aje dengan cikgu n classmate dia. Tapi bila bercampur dgn budak kelas lain, mesti dia melalak jugak.. So, mama sangat2 berharap we can also overcome those anxiety as well (of course mama sangat2 bersyukur dah with his current improvement, but he needs to slowly overcome those anxiety anyway..)

Maeve pun concern jugak sebenarnya, sebab nanti bila dah start home teaching or speech therapy (which is soon), he will need to deal with the therapist one-on-one basis anyway. Kalau dah dia asik melalak jer, how can we optimised the therapy session. Maeve kata dia akan jumpa Kerry (SLT) and Mairead (Home Teacher) and will advise them on how to deal with Z when he is having his anxiety. Apart from that, dia juga suggest mama panggil sorang kawan mama and try to make Z become close to them (mama ngadu, Z mesti melalak tiap kali kawan2 mama dtg rumah huhuhu). So dia suggest kalau one of my friend boleh spend some time to do something that he like, contohnya baca buku ke, main bola/ bubbles ke.. Then it could slowly build up his relationship with them and could also give some dimension for him to trust othe people. Problem is, aunty rini n aunty chai tu bukan reti main dengan budak2 hahahah! Camner la agaknya diorang nk try tackle Z kan.. hmm.. Aunty meri plak busy with caroline pun.. Haiyoo.. Uncle adrian pandai la main dgn budak2 nih.. Kena ajak uncle adrian n aunty rini ke rumah selalu lah camni..

Happy nak naik bas ^-^

We will meet Maeve again in 2-3 weeks time just before we go home, so we can have another plan for family in Malaysia.

InsyaAllah, with all the changes that happen in the past 2 months, mama percaya Z akan dapat overcome his anxiety one day... Amin..

Oh, mama juga cerita dekat Maeve (sambil bergenang2 air mata) how frustrated and heartbroken I was few weeks ago bila Z melalak2 di creche. Dia tanya, then what makes you continue him with the creche? Actually I was nearly giving up. But I keep telling myself that this is for his own good, we 'll try for one month and Alhamdulillah, after 1 month he does improved a lot. I am very proud of him really :D and of course to my own self :D..

All About Me

Masa mama hantar Z ke sekolah hari Isnin minggu lepas, the manager Laura bagitau yang cikgu Magda dah resigned. Dissapointed jugak lah mama sebab Z memang dah ok sikit dengan Magda. Satu hal pula nak kena biasakan Z dengan cikgu baru :(. Then Laura perkenalkan mama dengan cikgu baru Z, Aoife. Katanya cikgu Aoife has degree in Early Education with major in Special Education. Hmm.. Impressive! Lega sikit mendengarnya.. Hopefully Z can get along really well with her. Tapi mama agak confuse sikit lah, sebab setahu mama, cikgu Aoife ni mengajar one of toddler class. Adakah ini hanya temporary arrangement or memang Laura sengaja tukarkan dia ke kalas Z to help him? 

Mama dapat rasakan bakal ada perubahan yang lain nanti.. Kebetulan pula, last week DS forum yang mama join tu ada membincangkan pasal 'All about me' letter to teacher and classmate's parent. Basically to give some background about the child and any issue related to him. I think it was a good idea. So mama pun buat lah untuk Z. Hopefully, teacher Aoife akan dapat kenal Z dengan lebih baik lepas nih. Plus kalau ada teacher2 lain yg kena look after Z, they also can get some info from it. 

I think this idea is quite brilliant for all children with disabilities who goes to normal school. They are different, so the teachers need to be fully aware of their differences. Now classmate Z masih lagi kecik, they probably wont see any different in him yet, but later on we might have to start explaining to them as well.. Memandangkan Z pun baru jer masuk sekolah, mama buat yang simple jer lah.. but as he progress, the information to be included will also grow. Ada few examples yang boleh di copy refer in future..

http://abrightersunshine.blogspot.ca/2012/08/cates-all-about-me-packet.html

http://caringriffith.blogspot.ie/2011/09/letter-to-2nd-grade-classmates-parents.html

Mama doakan semoga minggu ini Z akan bertambah ok di sekolah.. InsyaAllah..

note: tetiba Z demam pulak pagi ni.. so, x ke sekolah lagi lah jawabnya.. :(

Orientation Week

The hardest week so far :(

Monday: We arrived at Giraffe around 10. Mama, papa and Z. They brought us to his class "Wobbler Safari" and being introduced to Z's "edu-care" Miss Magda. Laura, the manager went through few things with mama, while papa entertaining Z. Tak sampai 10 minit, Z dah start melalak. Papa bawak Z keluar pusing2 sekolah, about 30 minit barulah mama selesai berbincang. So we got back to his class and Magda cuba untuk bermesra dengan Z. Tak di layan. Kawan2 lain pun datang menyapa. Tak layan juga. Merengek2 jer.. Kebetulan minggu ni ramai classmate Z yg bercuti, so tinggal 5 orang jer dalam room tu. Good week to start. We left after an hour.

Classmate in Wobbler Safari

Tuesday: Kami sampai around 10 jugak. Mama n Z aje. Sampai2 terus mama dan Z masuk kelas. Plan mama, biarlah mama temankan Z observe the place first. Z ok aje bila mama dok sebelah. Tapi tak lama, teacher Magda sibuk nk usik2 Z. Apalagi, melalak lah dia. Once dah melalak, memang non-stop jadinya. Pukul 10.30 garden time. So semua wobbler (2 class jer) kena g garden. Magda dukung Z, mama konon2 nyorok lah, tak sampai 5 minit, mama terpaksa masuk jugak.. Melalak jer lah Z until we left Giraffe around 11.15 camtu..

'Garden'

Wednesday: kali ni mama bawak kak yah. Sebab mama ada meeting dengan chef. So, while mama meeting, kak yah la yg melayan Z. Dah habis meeting, mama join Z kat taman. Still crying walaupun ada kak yah. Lebih kurang sejam di taman, masuk classroom balik. Masa untuk activity dlm kelas pulak. Still melalak.. Nampak gaya macam dah ngantuk, so mama tepuk2 tetiba jer dah tidur. Magda suruh mama dan kak yah tinggal jer Z kat situ. So, kitorang pun keluar. Dekat sejam jugak kat luar, sempat lah mama pergi view prospect apartments. Pukul 12 camtu Laura call, cakap Z dah bangun. So we rushed back to the school. Sampai2 Z dah melalak atas dokongan Magda. They tried to feed him, tapi kalau dah melalak tu memang takde lah dia nak makan.. So, we just left afterwards.

Menangis sampai tertidur :(

Nota: Mama sangat impress with the chef! Bayangkan ada lebih kurang 50 kids in the school, and she has to cook for every single person according to their diet. 50% are normal eaters laa.. But another half ada different diet requirement. Mama risau la jugak takut dia mixed up ke apa kan.. Sebab Z kan allergy to dairy.. Pastu halal plak. Bab halal tu ok lah, sebab mama akan masak lauk dari rumah, and she doesnt mix pasta/grain/rice etc with meat. So confident sikit. Ada lagi 4-5 org muslim katanya.. For dairy tu, dia kata ada few other kids on dairy free as well. So, dia memang prepare separate food for them. Even sauce and pastry suma pun dia buat sendiri. Siap bawak mama g lawat kitchen lagi. Tunjuk dairy free butter n soya milk yg dia guna plus other non dairy ingredients. Dia kata Z ok lah lagi, ada budak dairy tak boleh, soya pun tak boleh. So kena creative. Ramai jugak yang vegetarian. Vegan pun ada. So everyday she has to prepare 5/6 type of food per meals!

Tengah makan.. ditemani oleh Eli & Mia 

Thursday: kak yah ikut lagi. Mama nak biasakan dia dengan jalan ke skolah Z. Sebab lepas nih kak yah yg akan g hantar dan jemput Z. Kalau mama yang hantar dan ambik, takut lama sangat pulak Z kat sekolah. So, planning nya Z masuk pukul 10 n balik pukul 4 camtu. Anyway, harini mama hantar masuk kelas jer. Then mama and kak yah terus keluar. Tunggu kat luar jer. Then diorang ke garden. Mama dengar Z melalak.. Hancur hati mama.. Tak tahan dengar Z melalak, mama g lepak kedai kopi. Pukul 12.30 baru mama g ambik Z. Diorang tengah cuba feed Z. Sambil melalak2. Makanan penuh atas kepala. Z kalau melalak memang tak kan makan lah. Nampak jer mama terus terkam. Then tampar2 mama. Huhuhu marah mama tinggalkan dia la tu.. Magda kata Z melalak juga, but they were times yang dia tak melalak. Masa kat taman tu, lepas setengah jam dia dah cool down. Tapi tak lama kemudian dah kena masuk kelas balik. So dia melalak semula. Setengah jam jugak, then baru dia diam. Baca buku sorang2 kat penjuru kelas :(.. Sambil perhatikan budak2 lain... Bila time makan, diorang angkat letak kat meja makan. Melalak semula.. He just hate new environment. But there is improvement compared to yesterday..

membaca sorang2 di hujung kelas :(

Friday: mama ada meeting pagi di office, so kak yah hantar Z (sebelum nih mama off pagi, then petang baru masuk office, today mama swap, off petang pulak). Kak yah cakap Z tertido on the way ke sekolah tu. masa sampai dia baru bangun. Mood agak ok. Pagi tu ada story telling. Dia memang suka orang baca buku. So diam & khusyuk jer sambil dengar cikgu bercerita. Kak yah pun tinggal jer lah. Petang mama datang jemput pukul 2.30. The plan is, nak bagi dia belajar tido kat school. Lepas lunch tu nap time. From 12.30 to 2.30 semua orang tido.. Except him. Mama sampai, Z tengah merengek2 sambil ditemankan oleh 1 of the teacher main air (fountain). Diorang kata dia tak mau tido. Tak mau minum susu and makan pun separuh jer. Kata mereka lagi, Z was better than yesterday. Nangis2 jugak, tapi ada lah masa2 nya yang dia tak menangis. He more observed what others doing. Lepas lunch, diorang try tidurkan, dia tak nak. So they play with bubbles which of course he enjoyed it soo much. Sejam lebih, still tak tido jugak. Kesian Z, mata dah merah, suara dah serak.. Memang mengantuk lah tu.. Tapi sebab dia tak biasa, dia tak boleh tido.. Mama sampai jer, terus terkam mama. Kiss2 n hug2.. Mama dok borak2 dengan cikgu, Z tutup mulut mama. pukul2 mama and tarik2 muka mama suruh mamamtengok dia aje. Marah benar dia.. :(

Tidur kepenatan..

Dengan keadaannya yang comot.. Makanan melekat2 di rambut.. Baju basah (main air) Rambut sepah2.. Tak makan, tak minum, tak tido.. Sebak betul perasaan mama :(. Sebabkan dia tak minum dari pagi, mama stay kat sekolah and kasi Z minum susu dulu.. Sambil minum tu, sambil dia membebel2, tangan tak lepas dari leher mama.. Mesti Z tengah ceritakan nasib dia haritu. Lepas dah habis sebotol, terus mama bawak Z balik. Keluar jer dari sekolah, Z terus tido.. Kesiannn.. Penat sangat dah dia.. Selalu pukul dua belas mmg nap time dia. But harini sampai pukul 2.30 baru tido..

Activity bulan Ogos

Mama rasa sedih dan bersalah sangat.. This creche maybe the best school, but whats the point if he is so upset? Should we carry on? Maybe its too early for him.. Maybe i've pushed him too far? 

But we dont have much choice. Sooner or later, Z kena juga ke creche. K Yah dah nak balik this November. Better we start now, so he will get used to creche by then. Even if we got a new babysitter, Z still has to go to school for his own benefit. This is for his future, it's suck, but we just got to go through this.. :(

Mama doakan semoga minggu depan will be better. Mama doakan tak lama lagi Z akan enjoy his school experience. Mama berdoa Z dilindungi Allah selalu.... Sabarlah sayang.. Sabarlah mama.. :(

Last Gymboree Class

Di sebabkan mama ada sedikit masa terluang di opis nih, mama update pasal last week dulu lah.. (Photos kat rumah, so x leh update pasal birthday and raya)

Still in good mood

Khamis lepas adalah kelas terakhir (so far) Z with Gymboree sebab mama cuma bayar untuk sebulan jer haritu. Next week dah start creche, so malas la mama nk continue lagi. Mama sedikit terkilan juga sebenarnya sebab Z sangat enjoy during the classes. Walaupun wasn't a good start, he does improved a lot from week to week. Masalahnya mama dah takde cuti nak bawak Z ke Gymboree, so terpaksalah kita berhenti buat sementara waktu nih. InsyaAllah, kalau ada rezeki, tahun depan mama bawak Z ke sana lagi yer..

Last week Z dapat bertahan dalam 45 minuets jugak. Last 15 minuets tu dia memang dah melalak la. Penat kot, so macam biasa mama bawak Z keluar awal bila dia dah start nangis. Ok lah, minggu sebelum tu, Z hanya bertahan untuk 30 minit. Well done sayang :)!!

More photos during his last class..

Happy :)

Dah start boring

Dah.. moh ler kita balik!
(Mengamuk sebab cikgu tiup bubbles ke arah lain (-__-)

Mama harap Z akan happy dan selesa di Giraffe nanti.. (berdebor2 mama nih!)

I Feel Bad...

Thursday macam biasa ada Gymboree class. Sebabkan minggu lepas Z terlalu amazing, minggu ni mama put higher expectation on Z’s behavior. Too ambitious! Akibatnya bila Z melalak selepas setengah jam, mama jadi sangat keciwa :(. Mama x de lah marah Z, but at the same time mama ignored Z’s demand for attention. Selalunya mama pujuk Z baik2, cuddling2 kalau Z melalak.. Instead mama paksa jugak Z join the class, which end up make things worst :(. At the end mama just grab Z and left early (10 mins before class finish). Mama memang sangat2 disappointed masa tu. Mama rasa mama dah berusaha bersungguh2 untuk membantu Z. in those short period, I just didn’t see why Z don’t want to cooperate.. Z nak cuddle2 pun mama malas nak layan.. terus call cab nak balik jer.. dalam cab Z tertidur sambil sedu sedan…

Bila Z dah tido, and suasana kembali tenteram, barulah mama realized what went wrong. Z MENGANTUK! that’s why he was cranky. Malam sebelum tu dia tido lambat, and paginya mama kejutkan awal sebab nak pergi sekolah awal (ambitious!). sampai 15 minits early, Z dah excited and merayap2 seluruh kelas dah. Mama pun excited, terus put him on slides and stairs. Half of his energy gone by the time class started. Lepas introduction n nyanyi2 tu lah baru dia start cranky.. mama pula expect him to be ok throughout the class, so mama buat2 x paham jer bila Z nampak dah penat. Masa tu mama memang keciwa sangat. Mama betul2 berharap Z akan enjoy sampai habis kelas. Mama tak faham kenapa Z menangis. Kenapa last week ok, this week tak ok pulak. Mama keciwa sebab mama rasa Z still having anxiety. Strangers anxiety yg dah berbulan2 mama berusaha untuk ubati :(. 

Look how happy he was in the beginning.. and how upset he was at the end.. Sorry sayang..

Sigh.. mama mintak maaf sayang.. when I look back of what happened yesterday, I realized you actually have overcome most of your anxiety (if not all). that’s actually a very huge steps already. Masa sampai semalam pun, Z sebenarnya dah berani explore the place alone by himself. Z dah berani layan cikgunya yg suka ketawa berdekah2 tu. Z juga ok when other children arrived. So, its not really the ‘strangers anxiety’. He just tired. He need a rest. And mama has punished you by not giving you attention and comfort you looking for.. :(

Memang padanlah muka mama bila sampai rumah, Z dah tak mahu sayang n cuddle mama.. walaupun dah berkali2 mama minta maaf. Z merajuk. Mesti hati Z terluka. Mama sepatutnya be the one who understand him the most. But I failed yesterday. And I broke your heart. And I am terribly sorry…

Nasib baik lah bila dah malam, Z dah maafkan mama.. Z dah sayang mama ketat2 macam selalu.. ahhhh.. I love you soo much baby *hugggss**

Amazing Day!

Terlalu aneh pada firasat mama.. Sebab hari ni Z tak menangis masa di Gymboree! And bertambah ajaib.. Z plays with other children!! Lagi menghairankan, orang ketawa kuat2 depan muka dia pun, dia masih boleh cool?!!!?! What just happened???!!

My happy baba :)

Pagi tadi berat betul hati mama nak bawak Z ke Gymboree. Bukan apa, dah la jauh, Z pulak for the last 2 sessions asik lah menangis and berpelukan dengan mama jer.. Tapi sebab dah bayar, mama paksa lah jugak diri.. Mama sengaja pergi awal sikit harini, hopefully Z sempat lah main2 sensorang dulu sebelum orang lain sampai. We arrived 15 minits early. Nampak2 jer pintu sekolah, Z dah start merengek2.. aih, sudah.. fikir mama. Masuk jer, ada cikgu sorang jer. daftar2 then bukak kasut n jaket, terus lah masuk kelas.

Memula dia masih nak berdukung lagi. Mama letakkan atas slide, eh suka pulak dia.. terus main2 tapi still pegang tangan mama lah. 5 minit kemudian ada new student coming. Molly namanya. Sangat friendly. Sebabkan dia baru, mak nya tak tau yang Z nih having anxiety (org lain selalunya mmg tak kasik anak diorang datang dekat sebab Z mesti akan melalak kalau di approach). Berlainan dengan Molly, dia terus datang and sapa Z. Z terpinga2 kejap, but x nangis. Dia Cuma melarikan diri dari Molly jer. Mama biarkan jer lah, mama Molly pulak tengah sibuk mengisi borang masa tu. Lama2 Z macam dah tak kisah Molly dok kejar2 dia tu.. dia terus jer main2 kat slide.. Hmm.. good sign :)

Terpinga2 tengok orang baru datang

Then, sedikit demi sedikit bebudak lain pun sampai.. Z macam terpegun jugak sekejap. Mama pegang jer tangan dia sambil ulang2 cakap its ok, mama here.. dia diam jer, dah tak main2 dah.. sampailah class start.

The good thing about Gymboree is, the class is quite structured. Lagu2 and activity lebih kurang sama jer every week. So, bila cikgu panggil untuk duduk berkumpulan tu, Z memang dah tahu its singing time (last class walaupun dia melalak, tapi time nyanyi dia diam jer). This time, dia mmg dah excited. Dah ketawa2 ngekek2 time nyanyi hokey pokey and bounce2.

Lepas habis activity berkumpulan, buat physical activity pulak. Again, his mood totally different now. Panjat sana panjat sini, main slide, even bebudak lain datang dekat pun dia tak kisah. Even masa cikgu datang and ajar dia dia main tolak2 pun dia tak nangis. First time strangers pegang yg dia tak menangis, in fact dia beri kerjasama pulak. Cikgu suruh tolak, dia tolak. Cikgu suruh stop, dia berhenti. MashaAllah.. mama sangat kagum T__T. Semua orang pun puji2 dia harini..heheh..

Khusyuk dengar cikgu bercerita :D

Final part activity bubbles and parachute. Ini memang tak payah suruh lah. Dia yang dulu pegi kejar cikgu. Mama pun kena tinggal. Dia punya ketawa, memang mengekek2. Cuma masalahnya he still don’t know how to share or taking turn. Org lain punya turn pun dia pergi serbu, pastu toys kat tangan org lain pun dia selamba jer p ambik (-.-).. Tak per lah, we will work on that issue later..

Penat.. habis skolah terus tertido..

Yang penting today he really make me proud.. ^_^. It’s really is a miracle. Just when I am about to giving up, he teaches me not to underestimate his ability. Memang nak menangis jer masa kat sekolah tadi. Maybe for other parents today, he has overcome his shyness after 3 weeks. But for me, he has overcome his anxiety in his whole 2 years of life :D

Sayangggggg Z ketat2!! *hugsss*

Play & Learn

Since last week, mama bawak Z ke Gymboree summer class. Once a week jer (Thursday), sebagai persediaan untuk masuk crechè nanti. Mama masukkan Z ke class umur 10-16 bulan. Ada lah dalam 7-8 orang dalam kelas tu. Mama rasa its a good age range la sebab bebudak lain pun semuanya masih merangkak and baru belajar nak berjalan jer.. Size pun hampir sama jer walaupun diorang lagi muda.

Cuma.......... Seperti yang dijangkakan, Z melalak jer most of the time ;(.

Masa first time pergi, Z macam terpinga2 sikit mulanya.. First 15 minit tu acara main2 sendiri jer.. Tak de lah melalak, tapi asik berpaut dengan mama jer lah.. Then bila class start, haa.. Terus lah dia pun berdrama.. kejap2 nangis, kejap2 nangis..

Time nyanyi2 tu dia suka lah, tapi still kena duduk jauh sikit dari org lain.. Tapi bila part kena exercise tu, ya Rabbi.. Macam kena dera! Mama pun dah hilang punca, tak tau nak buat apa dah.. Kesian jugak classmate yang lain, mesti parent diorang pun bengang jer, bayar mahal2 nak dtg kelas, tapi ada pulak budak hensem sorang nih memekak :((.

Second time, pegi tadi pagi.. This time, nampak2 jer sekolah, terus Z melalak.. Meronta2 tak mau masuk kelas.. Haiyoooo!! Memang nangis jer laa most of the time today.. Mama ingatkan dah biasa, patutnya bertambah ok la, lagi teruk ada lah.. Still he did enjoy the singing and dancing part (and bubbles too). Tapi part2 lain, mmg melalak.. Lagi best, bila cikgu berhenti nyanyi jer, dia meraung. Bila cikgu sambung nyanyi baru dia diam.. (-__-')

Nasib baik la mama dah bayar untuk sebulan, kalau tak.. Mama rasa tak sanggup lagi nak pergi huhuhu.. Dah la jauh sekolah tu.. Setengah jam jugak dengan teksi.. Ada few other Gymboree close by, tapi tu untuk umo 16 bulan keatas.. Semua dah boleh berlari dah, tak sesuai la kot untuk Z..

Aduhaii Z.. Janganlah menangis aje.. You have to learn new things in life.. Mama minta maaf kalau Z takut or sedih.. bukan mama tak sayangkan Z, mama cuma nak Z belajar jer..

~You're The Jam to My Jelly~

Since the past 2 weeks mama buatkan Z homemade jelly. Tapi ini bukan sembarangan Jelly, ini jelly ber magnesium :D.

Mama read a lots about the goodness of magnesium, especially how it could help with the anxiety - sosial, loudness, laughing, and teeth grinding - in Z's case. Sebab tu mama nak try bagi Z magnesium supplement. for the moment mama just kasik Floradix about 5ml (62.5mg) per day. Mama pilih Floradix sebab it based from nature.. And not that strong in my opinion. Mama blom berani lagi nak kasik magnesium lain. lagipun Floradix ni liquid based and ada rasa buah2an.. 

Mama rasa sedap jer taste nya (mama pun kena makan jugak time pms tu..), tapi not for Z! Mesti tutup mulut rapat2 bila mama nak suap. So nak tak nak, mama kenalah being creative. Sebabkan ia dah ada rasa buah2an, so mama buat lah jelly. Mama masak agar2 and gelatine (halal), then campurkan dengan homemade fruit juice (pear/apple). Bila dah agak sejuk sikit, baru mama masukkan Floradix. Yummy!! Z loves it!

Tapi stok agar2 n gelatine dah nak habis, kena beli kat kedai Pakistan le pulak. The only problem is, they come with flavoured. Ada tambahan gula, pewarna, perasa and all.. hmm.. Kena suruh mak teh post from Msia la nanti..

Then, mama juga dah start buat homemade jam over the weekend. This time mama buat apricot jam (less sugar). Sebabnya nak kasik Z makan with his NVD Nightime supplement. Selama ni mama cuma add to his dinner, but actually it is not advisable to add with other protein base food, nanti kurang lah effect dia.. Sebab tu lah mama try kasik with jam :)

Oh btw, Z dah on magnesium for nearly 2 weeks dah now. Nampak la dah berkurang sikit aktivity teeth grinding.. but still 'krup krap' lagi lah time dia tengah khusyuk buat something tu.. In term of anxiety pun nampak la sikit improvement. Sikit jer la.. Contohnya masa physio datang last week, dia tak nangis pun, but asik berpeluk dengan mama jer la.. That's a lot better than crying nob-stop for the whole session actually..:) Masa pegi housewarming party kat rumah aunty rini weekend haritu pun agak ok jugak.. Boleh bertahan nearly an hour without crying walaupun orang bising2. Lepas sejam, dia dah mula buat perangai lah. Alhamdulillah.. Its a lot better :D

Severin Yogurt Maker

Next project is homemade soya yogurt! Z mmg  makan yogurt everyday. Sangat2 costly sebenarnya. Kalau mama boleh buat sendiri, dah boleh cut cost gitu. Now tengah survey inexpensive yogurt maker. Hopefully menjadik ler.. :)

Disclaimer: I am not a doctor neither do I have any medical backgroud. Just a normal mom who seek the best for my son.