Edcoustic - Muhasabah Cinta

Found this video on facebook as uploaded by friend of mine..




Muhasabah Cinta

Wahai... Pemilik nyawaku
Betapa lemah diriku ini
Berat ujian dari Mu
Ku pasrahkan semua pada Mu

Tuhan... Baru ku sadar
Indah nikmat sehat itu
Tak pandai aku bersyukur
Kini kuharapkan cintaMu

Reff. :
Kata-kata cinta terucap indah
Mengalir berzikir di kidung doaku
Sakit yang ku rasa biar jadi penawar dosaku
Butir-butir cinta air mataku
Teringat semua yang Kau beri untukku
Ampuni khilaf dan salah selama ini
Ya ilahi....
Muhasabah cintaku...

Tuhan... Kuatkan aku
Lindungiku dari putus asa
Jika ku harus mati
Pertemukan aku dengan Mu

Where its all begin...

15/06/2010
First visit to KMC – Dr. Kamarulzaman (O&G Specialist)
Scan showed AFI of 29cm + glucose in urine.
Dr. Kamal mentioned his concern on the high liquor level.
Polyhydramnios
Could be due to few possibilities, and since glucose level sedikit tinggi, he ordered 2 hr Glucose Tolerent Test for the next day.


16/06/2010
2 hrs MGTT. Been fasting from the midnight. (Throw up a bit during the test)
Test result come back normal – so Gestational Diabetic is not the reason for the high amniotic level.
Next appointment in 2 weeks time.

27/06/2010
First visit to KK Kubur Panjang – Dr Jayasree
Scan showed AFI level increase to 33cm.
Dr. Jaya advice to follow up at Hospital Sultanah Bahiyah for Anomaly Scan (detailed anatomy scan)
Request to follow up from KMC instead since Dr. Kamal pun ada mentioned nk buat another test if the Glucose Test come back normal.


30/06/2010
Follow up with Dr. Kamal @ KMC
Performed Anomaly Scan.
AFI level increase to 35cm.
Scan showed baby’s distended bowel with ‘Double-Bubble’ sign.
Possibilities of Duodenal Atresia.
Dr. Kamal advice to follow up for 2nd opinion with Dr. Bavanathan – Perinatologist/Feto Maternal at Hospital Sultanah Bahiyah (High Risk Pregnancy specialist for Northern Region).
He personally rang Dr. Bava (who happened to be his student ages ago) to discuss my conditions.
Appointment was set for the next day.


01/07/2010
First appointment with Dr. Bava @ Hospital Sultanah Bahiyah.
Dr. Bava & his team (2 other Registrar) performed another Anomaly Scan
Confirmed Double-Bubble sign.
Cardio Chogenic focus scan – Heart.
(dinding baby’s lung sedikit tipis, might be due to pressure from excessive liquid.)
Ask about any chromosome abnormalities – based on the scan, they don’t find any soft marker or abnormalities (yet).

Result
- Possible diagnosis of Duodenal Atresia
- Baby will need urgent surgery after delivery
- Dr. Bava suggest to deliver here in HSB since the specialist Paed Surgeon only available here.
- high risk of preterm labour
- suggest to induce early (36 weeks GA)
- ordered mummy to have steroid injections to help mature baby’s lung.
- Dr. Bava to contact Surgical team (paed)
- next appointment 21/07/10.

02/07/10
Hospital Sultanah Bahiyah- Labour room
2 steroid injections within 12 hrs interval.
8.00am – mummy got the first steroid shot (ouch!)
8.00pm – the second n last shot.

Current management
Continue follow up with KK for weekly antenatal check up
Home visits by senior nurses weekly
(so, bi-weekly monitored)

Note for tomorrow appointment (21/07/10)
Anxious to wait for tomorrow’s appointment...
Hopefully Dr. Bava could decide when to induce sbb daddy need to confirm the date so he can be with us.
Method of delivery: normal or c-sect? (baby still not engaged and might not be since too much liquid), hubby suggest to opt for elective c-sect to reduce stress on mummy n baby. Will consult with Dr. Bava.
To be introduced to the Neonatal team.
Possible for early admission?
To ask doctor on how severe baby’s condition? (mummy need to study more on DA today)


Ya Allah ya Tuhanku..permudahkanlah perjalanan kami.. semoga kami tidak diuji dengan penyakit2 yg tak mampu kami ubati.. amin..

more 3d/4d photos

okeh, sambungan semalam..

::it's me!::


::Dr. ckp saye tgh bersiul2 sampai muncong2 molot::


::me in black n white::


:: my hobby: sucking my thumb ::


:: my hobby: Punching mummy's uterus wall ::

32 weeeks: 4d scan

kite lupakan sekejap lah kisah sedih tu yer..
i am soo happy sehari dua nih after seeing my baby smlm.. :)
walopon my case dah di transfer ke Hosp Sultanah Bahiyah, i decided to go back to KMC yesterday.. saje laa nk g jumpa doctor kamarulzaman, nk say thanks suma2 sbb he is the one yg found out about my conditions and all the advice he given to us.

so, meeting smlm pun more macam informal jer laa.. sembang2 on future management plan of delivery and dia pun ckp, boleh aje if i still insist utk deliver here in KMC, tapi the baby will still have to be transferred to HSB sbb the surgeon is there.. tak nak lah saya berpisah dgn baby seawal itu kan..

lepas sembang2 tu, i ckp ler, boleh tak nk buat 4d scan skali lagi.. dia ckp no problem, so di godek2 ler perut saye.. fluid keep increasing, resulting a clearer scan. baby sgt selesa dlm perut mummy, masih boleh berenang2 kesana kesini walaupun dh 32 weeks.. (but of course la ade contradiction nyer..)

anyway, babys measurement adelah normal.. mmg as per schedule.. weight pun dh 1.95kg. so, insyaAllah, boleh capai target at least 2.2kg before induce nanti.. Alhamdulillah.. legaaa sgt bila dpt tgk n tahu babys conditions so far.. dh lama rasanya mummy berendam air mata.. kalau tak, asik dpt bad news jer for the past 2 weeks..huhuh

hubby pun happy sgt when i emailed the photos.. i know its been really hard for him as well.. dah la jauh.. then his work itself yg been very demanding.. *sigh*..

eh, enough with those sad story mummy! lets show some photos :)




alamakk... internet slow ler plak.. besok ler sambung.. tskk..

When things dont go our way..

my poor baby has been diagnosed with duodenal atresia..
please pray for his health and safety and hopefully he will be strong and keep hang in there for few more weeks..

mummy n daddy loves you soo much and will do our best for you..


will update more when i have the strength to do so..