Career?

Last week operation manager mama bagitau ada new senior position available. She thinks i'm deserved to take up the positions and wants me to think about it..

Dengan ekonomi ireland yg sangat teruk skrg, this is such a golden opportunity. I've been in my current position for nearly 3 years now. Dah lemau di sini :(. 

Yes, it is a good boost to my career & my financial..

But...

This also meaning i have to go back to my full 5 days job soon. Z has been very good in school now, so probably not that bad if he spends 5 days per week there.. Tapi how about appointments, therapies and all? Sekarang pun every week mesti ada at least 1 appointment. How can we manage that?

Time & energy? Mampukah mama nk uruskan semuanya? Work n home? i think i am ok with the work part.. but how about home? Family? Z especially? Will i have time to practise his therapies at home? My quality time with him will be affected too. Will he have all the attention and love he supposed to have? 

Kadang2 cemburu juga tengok kawan2 mama yang dah 'advance' in their career. I'm still stuck here.. 

This is my opportunity. But is this really what i want NOW? Am i ready?

After few days of thinking.. I think i have made up my mind. NO, im not ready. i've seen a good progress with Z for the last couple of months, and he does make me proud of what i am doing right now. I might not have more money or status, but I have him. And i want to continue doing what im doing now. 

Hopefully this same opportunity will arise again in the future. And by that time hopefully i am more ready InsyaAllah..

Ya Allah.. Redha lah daku dengan ketentuanMu.. Amin..

Mama loves you so much Z, muahs!!