MC n School's Update

Last week at work and Im at home sick :( . Risau betul sebab banyak bende lagi x settle, apa nak buat.. When everything is under pressure, mmg senang nak jatuh sakit pun. Dari last week mmg mama dah demam2, tapi gagahkan diri jugak. Over the weekend mama dh start wheezing, memula ingatkan allergy sbb mama did some cleaning sabtu tu. Makan anti histamine, x berkesan pun.. sampai la malam Ahad when it got worst. Tercungap2, x leh tido. Isnin jumpa doctor, dapat mc 3 hari. Mama ingatkan nk ambik sehari jer, but doctor cakap infection agak teruk, kena berehat banyak.. Hmm end up mama cuma dapat reply work emails from home je laa.. Nasib baik la si Michael tu dh di ajar sikit2 pasal kerja mama haritu. Any urgent matter, mama guide jer dia via email.

2-3 hari ni Z pun asik marah mama. Mama nak layan main dgn Z pun x boleh sbb memang semput tercungap2. Lepak tengok tv dgn Z jer. Tu pun Z still ngamuk, sbb selalu mama akan nyanyi sama2, ni nak nyanyi pun x boleh. Siap dia tampar2 mulut mama suruh nyanyi huhu.. Mmg cranky habis la Z 2-3 harini.. Kadang2 mama buarkan je Z mengamuk.. Dah tak terlayan.. Huhu Sorry la sayang, mama mmg x larat sangat..

Alhamdulillah harini rasa ok sikit. Still wheezing n shortness of breath. But dah boleh bercakap :). Tadi pegi hantar Z sekolah, mama lepak2 sekejap dengan cikgu Yvonne. Mgu lepas cuti mid term, so Yvonne cuti. Smlm plak mama just hantar Z then blah jer. So harini baru boleh catch up. 

Z has improves tremendously lately. Alhamdulillah syukur sangat tengok perkembangan dia. Semenjak boleh jalan sikit2 nih, he has more confident to mix with other kids. He could join in with them, and they also accepting him more as their friends. Mama sampai jer tadi, terus kawan2 dia datang sambut sambil jerit2 Z is here Z is here. And what more surprise is he wont mind when they come close to him or even hugging him. Dulu bebudak tu dtg je dekat, terus dia melalak. Yer la, bayangkan dia duduk on floor level, budak2 lain suma dh berlari sekeliling dia. Mesti la dia takut, kang mesti ada jer yg terlanggar dia.. Now he must feels that he is part of the group, they are standing at the same level  :)

Yvonne cakap cikgu baru Judith, tu bagus orangnya. Ciara pun ok ja.. Cikgu Emma yg pindah ke kelas lain. And for once dia cakap dia syok betul bila si Emma tu pindah. First impression pun dia tahu emma tu have no interest at all with Z or even other kids. Hehe so bukan mama sorang ler yg berperasaan begitu. Honestly mmg menyampah tiap kali pandang muka dia. I dont believe anything that comes out of her mouth. Tatau ler camne bleh jadi supervisor..

Anyway, we also excited for Zs next move to other toddler class. Kelas tu toddler besar sikit berbanding kelas sekarang. And paling best cikgu Tammy n cikgu Niki kat situ. Mama x berapa kenal sangat dengan cikgu Niki, dia mmg dh lama kat situ, baru akhir2 ni ja dia show interest on Z. Maybe sbb Z bakal masuk kelas dia kot. But cikgu Tammy.. Wow! Ive been waiting for this move since Z's first started the school. Masa mula2 masuk dulu, Z kan kaki melalak.. Like the whole day punya melalak.. And cikgu Tammy la yg selalu pujuk Z. Kalau mama hantar pagi2 dulu tu, mmg cikgu Tammy yg akan sambut Z. Walaupun dia bukan cikgu kelas Z, tapi nampak sangat she has personal interest on Z. Z pun sukaaa sangat dgn cikgu Tammy. Hopefully Z will enjoy n flourish more in his new class :)

1 More week :)

Very excited, at the same time I was slump with works!

Dah confirm mama akan kerja Monday & Tuesday. And I have been brief on my 'new task' which will start on the 3rd March. Dalam masa yang sama I have to hand over my current portfolios (3/4 of them) to the new person. Actually he is not new, he has been working here on contract basis for nearly 6 months now. His contract is due to end this month, so they just extend it for another year. Lucky you Michael :). Its a relief for me as well. Sekurang2nya dah confirm ada orang yg take over my job. I thought it will take another months before they hire a new staff :)

But since I am handing over part of my portfolios, I need to clear up all outstanding issues. Banyak gilos yang still outstanding, dah la ada few deadlines kena kejar jugak nih sigh.. sejak 4-5 harini kesihatan pun dah merudum.. tension kerja and tension memikirkan perihal Z.

Macam2 happen to him at school. Dengan sup ayam nya lah.. then the next day, Z was pushed to the wall by one of his friend.. Malam tu Z muntah! Gabra betul mama, dah la papa oncall. Tapi mama rasa muntahnya tu lebih kepada issue blockage, bukan issue terhantuk tu. Nasib baik sekali jer muntahnya.. Tapi memang nampak la 'sakit' masa nak muntah tu.. Z berak jer every 2-3 days, tapi mama perasan lately 'hasilnya' tu tak sebanyak mana. That's makes me very worry. 

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Pastu semalam pun Z muntah masa lunch kat sekolah. Kebetulan ptg ada appointment dengan surgeon, mama ambik half day. The good thing is, kali ni Z tak melalak masa jumpa Mr Samy :). Z sibuk mengexplore bilik doctor. Lagipun sekejap jer jumpa. Mama bagitau la pasal Z muntah2.. dia tekan2 perut Z, dia cakap ok jer.. maybe sebab constipation je kot.. dia pesan kalau muntah semakin teruk bawak ke hospital semula. Alhamdulillah balik drpd hospital tu Z dah berak yang banyak and dia x muntah pun semalam.. so memang sebab constipation la kot..

Dedua tangan kene cucuk

Lepas jumpa Mr Samy tu mama bawak Z pegi buat blood test pulak. Last buat 6 months ago. Selalu takde la Z melalak beriya2 pun, but semalam dia punya meronta2 n meraung, sampai tercabut line tu. Dah kena cucuk tangan sebelah lagi.. Ada lagi sorang patient dalam lab tu, besar dah umo 8-9 thn camtu kot. Dia punya meraung, siap maki hamun lagi.. Mama rasa sebab tu la Z pun tumpang sekaki.. heheh..

Anyway, looking forward to the weekend. Then 1 more week, then we can spend more time together darling!

Chicken Soup

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Semalam buat pertama kali Z makan chicken soup disekolah - ayam katok!!! Arrgghh tension x habis lagi mama nih ;(

Masa mama pegi jemput Z ptg semalam, mama perasan Z pakai baju n seluar spare. Cikgu cakap Z muntah lepas tea time, and then afternoon snack pun Z muntah. So mama tanya, what did he had for his tea? Dengan selamba cikgu cakap ' oh he had chicken soup, we just want to try something new for him today. Its good for him to taste different type of foods. But he didnt like it'. Mama macam blur2 lagi time tu, sebab risaukan Z muntah2 (mama selalu phobia bila Z muntah sebab it could be early sign of blockage SBO). Mama tanya la is there big lump in his soup? cikgu kata tak, they pureed the soup. Ok fine.. terus mama siap2kan Z and keluar kelas.. Masa tu baru terperasan... WHAT? CHICKEN Soup???? DAMN!!

Terus mama pegi bilik manager and asked her to investigate. Dia call cikgu Z utk confirmation, cikgu cakap YES, its CHICKEN soup. Oh my words.. Dia cakap dia akan investigate how it happen and will let me know.

So pagi tadi jumpa manager, dia explained. Katanya chef cuti semalam, and replacement tu 'tak perasan' bab halal. Cikgu kelas pun baru lagi kan.. dia memang ambik jer apa chef bagi, sebab chef yg patut tahu all childrens diet.. Manager cakap Z only took few spoons before he throw up. She promise it would never happen again. Nasib baik la jugak Z muntahkan.. 

Sigh.. bab halal haram ni memang mencabar betul especially when you are in non muslim country.. Mama boleh bertahan lagi bila diorang buat sambil lewa jer dengan Z.. sabar.. tapi bila bab makan nih, adoii.. jadi darah daging kot.. huhuhuhu..

Sekolah Z memang ada chef (professional) yang sediakan makanan untuk diorang. Lunch and tea time la yang dia akan masak2. breakfast n snacks makan cereal n buah2 jer.. Lunch mama memang masak n buatkan bekal untuk Z. Chef cuma perlu panaskan jer.. Untuk tea time tu mama dah pesan setakat vegetarian soup tu boleh la bagi Z. Tapi on other menu, just give him yogurt or puding (soya). Snacks takpe la memang buah2 jer.. (And we still pay bloody same fees as other kids).

Pastu untuk setiap meals, diorang akan guna personal mat untuk each kids so tak mixed up. Ramai jer dalam kelas Z yg ada special dietary requirement. No dairy ke.. no gluten ke.. certain2 allergy like egg ke.. or macam Pooja, no meat. Kalau takde special requirement, placemat kaler biru. Z punya macam kat bawah ni. And they still gave him chicken soup??? AAAA tension!

2 Weeks Notice

2 months notice actually, but only 2 more weeks to go.. Yippiee!!!

Carer's Leave application masih terumbang ambing, banyak betul procedures! Since mama dah bagi notice to start my leave from 1st March, early this week boss mama suruh mama isi form unpaid leave dulu. So whatever happen, I will still be on leave from 1st March! Sama je la unpaid leave or carer leave tu.. dedua mama x dapat gaji..

About the 2 days positions plak, it is confirmed as well. Cuma bos mama kata dah dekat hari nanti baru diskas pasal pembahagian kerja. Ye la tu. Tahu sangat, kompem mama masih kena handle all the work at least for few more months. Tak pe lah, yang penting mama boleh spend more time with Z :)

Mama juga baru je dapat call dari Manager sekolah Z. Dia pun dah approved 2.5 days per week untuk Z. Murah la sikit daripada nak kena bayar 3 days per week mcm original plan tu. Sekolah dia x terima half day actually, itu pasal la mama pening sikit. Cikgu Yvonne kan keje 2.5 days, so mama pikir kena bayor 3 days la.. ok la tu, sep €100 sebulan utk separuh hari tu.. heheheh..

Alhamdulillah, things turn out as plan.. At least mama keje 2 days tu boleh jugak cover sekolah Z n perbelanjaan mama. And kalau application for Carer's Benefit tu lulus, lagi lah untung.. HR cakap mama patut dapat la sebab dah lama pun keje and pay tax kat Ireland ni kan.. Ni la masanya nak claim balik.. hihihi.. InsyaAllah kalau dapat benefit tu, akan digunakan sebaiknya untuk therapy Z.. Amin..

HAPPY WEEKEND ALL :D

Kad kasih sayang drpd Z ;)

Iphone oh iphone

Henpon papa hilang! Baru pakai x sampai sebulan. Sabo je la.. Last year about the same time (march 17) henpon mama kena cilok. Now papa pulak.. 

Semalam keluar ronda2 sekitar The Point, dekat jer, saja nak bawak Z naik kete memalam. Masa nak keluar tu, papa suruh mama pegang purse, kunci n henpon dia. Mama komplen la berat sebab mama pun x bawak handbag pun.. nak pegi dekat2 jer kan.. so papa ambik balik phone dia and left his keys n wallet with me. 

pung pang pung pang dalam 30-45 minit sampai la rumah kembali. Sekali dia tanya, mana henpon? eh, tadikan papa dah pegang.. haah, seb baik dia ingat memang dia ambik pun phone tu sebelum keluar.. (phew, kalau mama yg hilangkan, kompem la mama kena ganti heheheh).

So mama pun call ler phone papa bertalu2. takde orang angkat. Papa turun g carik dalam kete and parking area. pun tak jumpa. Mama try call lagi, pastu dapat sms dari no papa 'cant take your call, will call you later'. Pastu terus orang tu off henpon papa. Generik reply je tu. Tepon mama dulu pun dapat reply camtu, pastu terus pencopek off tepon. Sama jer modus operandi dia. Hampeh. Mama call lagi dan lagi, terus dah tak bunyi. Suruh papa call O2 and block the phone je la jawabnya.. Kang tak pasal2 kena bayar bill beratus2..

Rasanya papa tertinggal atas bumbung kete (sebab dia mmg suka letak purse/phone atas bumbung while putting Z to his carseat), pastu mesti jatuh dah kat luar gate apartment. Kalau area parking, mesti sempat diselamatkan lagi. Tak pun dia letak atas riba, jatuh masa singgah kedai ke..

Sekian kisah Iphone 5C papa. Nak beli baru, kena bayar full price la, sebab contract baru lagi kan.. Rasa mahal sgt lah, selalu beli murah jer.. So now papa back to his old iphone 4. Dulu kan rosak, harini bawak g kedai, dah boleh pakai pun. Tapi slow la compare to iphone 5 kan.. Rugi duit mama jer belikan tepon baru untuk papa haritu. Takde rezeki namanya.. Kesian papa huhuhu..

ENT, Hospitals & Anxiety

Z had ENT appointment on Monday. For once, I thought his anxiety level has improve for the last 3-4 months, but I was so wrong...

Last ENT appointment (Sept/Oct last year) wasnt that bad actually. He did cry a bit when the doctor examine him, but that was it. Takde lah sampai meraung2. Tapi kali ni, he was crying as soon as we enter the consultant room! And the consultant room happen to be the same room as Mr Samy (Surgeon)' room. Sebelum nih jumpa doctor (registrar) on a different room, probably thats why he was ok..

Memang tiap kali jumpa Mr Samy Z akan melalak mcm nampak antu.. Mr Samy is a very nice surgeon actually, dia pun heran kenapa Z asik melalak tiap kali jumpa dia. Mama bagitau la sebab Z ada anxiety expecially bila jumpa strangers, walaupun pelik jugak sebab dia mcm ok jer kalau jumpa doctor lain. But it makes me realised 1 thing now, Z is still having trauma from his surgery last year! It does makes senses now. Patutla dia asyik melalak tiap kali pegi out patient dept sebab kat situ la dia slalu jumpa Mr Samy. And he remembered Mr Samy, Mr Samy is not a stranger to him, but probably somebody that make him 'suffer'.

Aaahh poor Z. Bila di ingat kembali saat Z before surgery last year, memang mama rasa nak peluk Z ketat2. Not the actual surgery yg Z takut. He was knocked out during the surgery, so he wont remember. But the day before that (and of course the whole 3 weeks hospital stay in general), when they want to find out about the blockage. He was wide awake at that time. They rushed him to emergency recess room, then poke him all over the place to empty his tummy. He was screaming so loud at that time. Mama plak hanya mampu berdiri di hujung bilik sambil melalak. After that he was rushed back and forth to the x ray room with camera IN his tummy, with coloured liquid IN his tummy and segala macam test lagilah ---- while he's wide awake! Honestly, mama pun trauma bila kenangkan the situation, apetah lagi Z.. Masih terngiang2 di telinga mama Z menjerit2 'awayyyy!! awayyyyy!! gwayyy!!' yes, he cant speak, but that's exactly his word at that time. actually for the whole 3 weeks stay in the hospital. Tiap kali dia nampak nurse or doctor datang jer, mesti dia jerit 'gwayyy!!'.

Day 5 Post SBO Operation

Memula mama heran jugak, apa yang Z jeritkan. Asik ulang mende yang sama jer, and its a new words, very different to his regular babbling. Bila Mairead (Home Teacher) datang the next day, dia yg bagitau mama OMG, I think he say 'Go Away!' . We never heard the words again since he's out of the hospital. So he really meant what he said.. Mairead informed Maeve (Psychologist) about that, and she thinks Z must has traumatic experience when he was in NICU, that's where the anxiety comes actually. Pelik juga, takkan la umo 2-3 hari dah boleh ingat (he was in NICU for 16 days), apparently it could come subconciously according to Maeve..

Day 2 of life - Post DA Operation

Back to ENT appointment, this time for his hearing. Dah 2 kali pegi buat hearing test in clinic North George's St (not hospital), but wasnt successful because Z wont cooperate or in other word, Z was crying! So they refer us to hospital, with the hope that ENT team here could perform the test. Which is not. But at least this time they could do pressure test, and it was confirmed that he had fluid behind his ears. The Consultant still want to have the hearing test result before he could decide putting a grommet. So we have to reschedule the test in 6 weeks time. 

Z during ABR test in Gleneagles, Msia summer 2012

Next time the test will be performed in a separate building, so hopefully Z tak akan phobia sangat. Mama plan nak lalu ikut jalan belakang, then straight to the test room. According to ENT, kalau tak berjaya jugak next time, she will dicuss few other option that we can do for the tes involving GA kot.. Tengok ler camner.. hearing could impact his speech and also his balancing skill! Walaupun his ABR (auditory brain response) test is ok, but the blockage/fluid could impact his hearing. Mama tahu Z boleh je dengar most of the time, but we just dont know at what level. Mama nak rule out all other problem first before we go to autism route.